no planning, just living.

:: Life, if you keep chasing it so hard, will drive you to death. Time - when pursued like a bandit - will behave like one; always remaining one county or one room ahead of you... At some point you have to stop because it won't. You have to admit that you can't catch it. That you're not supposed to catch it. At some point, you gotta let go and sit still and allow contentment to come to you. 


:: Sit quietly for now and cease your relentless participation in trying to keep the world revolving. Watch what happens.... Life continues on. Why don't you let it be?

::I hear this argument and it appeals to me. I believe in it, intellectually. I really do. But then I wonder - with all my restless yearning, with all my hyped-up fervor and with this stupidly hungry nature of mine - what should I do with my energy instead?

:: That answer arrives, too:: Look for God, suggests my Guru. Look for God like a man with his head on fire looks for water. 


[an excerpt from Eat. Pray. Love. by Elizabeth Gilbert]


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As you have noticed, this summer has been full of questions about the future. I'm about to begin my Senior year of college and I really have no idea what I will do after I walk across that stage in May. Trust me, I've researched so many Grad Schools. I've looked at degrees like I'm back in high school again... I've thought about taking a year off... but at the end of it all. I'm not satisfied with those solutions.

Yes, they are all great ideas. Yes, I could accomplish anything I set my mind to achieving.

But I need to... just STOP. So that I can, just LIVE.

I can pursue every option. I can research until I'm the academic expert. But what good will that do for me? Life will continue being lived by those around me. God will continue to fulfill his plans and purposes in the world around me... and I will have missed it. I will have missed LIVING.

So, in answer to your question:: I have no idea what I will do after graduation.

For now, I'm pursuing my Father God,
listening to incredible music as of late,
anticipating being reunited with some of my best friends,
and in everything, hopefully I will always be::

 'Living in the Moment'.