just be still.

i stand with great expectations on the forefront of countless new horizons waiting to be explored. my mind is unaccustomed to such freedom of choice. after all, i have grown up with constant structure, stability, and sound advice. what does one young almost college graduate do with so much freedom and endless possibilities?

growing up in an environment full of chaos and uncertainty, it would seem i am fully prepared to set out on my own adventure of a new unknown. however, this waiting period of a year before graduation has uprooted many emotions, beliefs, and ideas i thought were 'sound' foundations in my life. things that instead turned out to only be false securities covering those deep wounds from the past.

likewise, in the process of determining what is indeed 'true' in my life, i have found my friend Insecurity whispering her own versions of 'encouragement' about my future of freedom. am i certain that now is the time to try new things? can i really just step out and jump? how can it be so simple? am i prepared to accept the consequences of my actions? which choice is the best choice?

but you know what i've learned? it's OKAY to not know for certain. my Beloved has a better plan...