sometimes, i think life is UBER complicated. but then i think maybe life is complicated so that we have to depend on God for it all to work out. maybe each new challenge presents itself as an opportunity grow in dependency on God. (which makes me smile because we try so hard to do things on our own and become independent).
i also think, hmmm... i asked for God to increase my faith, and this season is the perfect opportunity to grow in faith and assurance. it reminds me of that verse in the bible, 'i believe; lord, help my unbelief' (mark 9). of course i believe that God provides, that God cares about me, that God is with me always.. but even in my belief, there are places where i still doubt. and this season sure as heck is teachin' me about the places i still try to independently rule myself. lord, help my unbelief.
in my random daydreams today, i thought about this whole season in my life. learning to rely on God for every little detail. and i thought, hmmm.. i wonder what God is preparing me for through this season? maybe i'm learning how to trust and rely on God now, in our safe little town, with friends&family to support me... so that one day, maybe, if i live in a foreign country totally out of my element, i'll be able to look back and say, 'hey, God provided for me then, surely he'll provide for me now'...
i am thankful for where i am at.
i am loving the place i am at. (as hard as it is at times).
i am learning and growing lots in the place i am at.
right here. in this moment.
day by day.
so true.
ReplyDeleteso wise.
i was just talking with one of my campers about this. i thought of the dessert song by hillsong....{all of my life. in every season. you are still God. and i have a reason to sing. i have a reason to worship}
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i love you brittney dear.