my life is a messy canvas.

the past two weeks have sucked. been super busy. and have drove me to feel insane. i'm tired all the time. grouchy with my friends. and i feel like a mess.

i don't know if it's the stress of school. of all the things i'm involved in. the stress of projects and papers. knowing i need to pick a topic for my senior project. knowing i need to find an internship. wondering about grad school and if i even want a career in counseling. wondering what i'm supposed to do with my life. wondering.. wondering.. wondering.

it's so much stress. so much mess.
so much wonder and doubt.
so much pressure and confusion.

i just need some space to breathe. some time alone.
i need to regroup, refocus, reenergize.
i need peace in the midst of all this chaos.

and so i skipped class, and came to the library for a few hours.
to escape. to breathe. and it feels so great.